A new day A new season

Well early this morning I ate a nice bowl of cereal, forgot to put honey in my tea. So it taste very bitter with too much water. 4 minute to get to class and YYES!! made it in the nick of time. We had a wonderful lecture from the response to questions asked by students. Ask I reflect what I took from today's lecture in Cross Culture Communications is that I must look at the persons heart not the doctrine. I must love people and their heart not the theology and doctrine. Learned plenty of information about the solar system, plants and bird all of which God created. Wonderfully at that!!! Then I ate a salal after class, interesting enough I had a encouraging conversation with Mama Nita she doesn't like to be call ma'am. Before this I seen I had several missed calls my phone was on vibrate, therefore I was ignorant of the emergency. Serena ran out of gas this was sad to find out I couldn't believe it. I was instantly heart struck from the fact that I was not there to help the one I love. I felt helpless, like a boxer fighting with his hand and feet tied. But in the midst of my sad moment Mama Nita encouraged me, the Holy Spirit new that I was deeply sadden. My heavenly Father intervene by using her to tell me I am where God wants me to be, stick to seminary stick to moving toward the prize of the high calling. "You will encounter so many obstacles" soon after I informed her of my mother and why did all this have to happen now, why now. Instantly I felt her heart of a mother, to let me know your mother would want you to continue on keep pressing keep going toward the call God has for you. "you will get through brother" and I quote Mama Nita. Thank you Father

Christmas Eve

Well, tomorrow is Christmas Day, I am here in the chair mommy bought. Dionca is on the coach, Pops just walking downstair he all over the place as usual. Oh Serena is at home cooking her little heart out. (by the way she just call) Right now we are watching This Christmas, I remember when you was watching this movie sometime last year. I know you looking at us now, I wish you were here it would be so much better. None of us would really be hurting now each one of us are experiencing our own pain. As Pops looks at the Christmas tree I see the absence of your presence. I miss Christmas shopping with you even though you had to drag me out of the house. "Mike you go to the store with me" that close to what you would say. Today this girl as me what was I getting you for Christmas, it hurt to know that I can't give you nothing. I wish I could give you something, God knows that I wish I could give you a hug, kiss, the perfume you like, or the Wii game you want. Where did the time go? You know Carl had his baby yesterday, her name is Ava Noel Rogers. She is a very pretty I wish I could show you the pictures. Man there is a part of me that still doesn't believe you are gone. It seems close to impossible that you are not here with us. This is crazy to me mom, like you were with me know to long ago. I was able to hold you love you and crack jokes with you. But that is all gone, there is no more holding you, playing and cracking jokes with you. I am in awe right now, God gave me you and he gave me you. Well I miss you so much, really wish you were here love you.