Christmas Eve

Well, tomorrow is Christmas Day, I am here in the chair mommy bought. Dionca is on the coach, Pops just walking downstair he all over the place as usual. Oh Serena is at home cooking her little heart out. (by the way she just call) Right now we are watching This Christmas, I remember when you was watching this movie sometime last year. I know you looking at us now, I wish you were here it would be so much better. None of us would really be hurting now each one of us are experiencing our own pain. As Pops looks at the Christmas tree I see the absence of your presence. I miss Christmas shopping with you even though you had to drag me out of the house. "Mike you go to the store with me" that close to what you would say. Today this girl as me what was I getting you for Christmas, it hurt to know that I can't give you nothing. I wish I could give you something, God knows that I wish I could give you a hug, kiss, the perfume you like, or the Wii game you want. Where did the time go? You know Carl had his baby yesterday, her name is Ava Noel Rogers. She is a very pretty I wish I could show you the pictures. Man there is a part of me that still doesn't believe you are gone. It seems close to impossible that you are not here with us. This is crazy to me mom, like you were with me know to long ago. I was able to hold you love you and crack jokes with you. But that is all gone, there is no more holding you, playing and cracking jokes with you. I am in awe right now, God gave me you and he gave me you. Well I miss you so much, really wish you were here love you.